Bare with me for this one

I have about 1000 other things I could be doing tonight, but I decided this night was going to be for me. Graduation is closing in and its scary to think of all the things I need to get done, but a girl's gotta have a little time to her self! Do a little blogging, searching for new templates and basically wasting time! But right now, I'm happy about that (and the prospect of an early bed time!).

So even though I'm writing now as an escape from everything else in my planner, I am still a slave to it. My mind is constantly running with all the things I have going on I suppose I just need a forum right now to vent about it a little bit. I think my biggest anxiety right now is waiting to hear back from the job I interviewed with. I'm graduating. I need a job. Simple as that but at the same time so complex. I hate this waiting game sometimes. Okay, that was probably a little lie, I hate it most of the time. This job, whichever one I end up getting is my first big step into "real" adulthood. No one's here to hold my hand anymore. For the past 16 years I have been in the education system and sooner or later, someone always tells you what to do next. It never fails. Buzzer.. times up. Now I get the joy and the responsibility (burden?) of taking those next steps on my own. Don't get me wrong! I'm excited for this newfound independence! I plan on embracing it, but that does not mean I am going to hide the fact that I am, well.. apprehensive. Not only is there the whole job thing but transfering to my own insurance, consolidating student loans, etc. These are all things I am anxious to get going on but then remember that I am still a student. I still have to go to ADC330 in the morning. I get to go. I'm oddly cherishing these final classes. I dislike the fact that I still have work to do for them (that senioritis set in months ago), but at the same time I know these are my final college classes..at least for awhile.

There's so much more to say but I don't want to end up whining. Because really I'm not. I'm not upset. In fact I am very content. I know God has me in this place, as chaotic as it can be, for a reason. In His timing I will hear back from this job. In His timing the little shattered pieces of my life will fall into place. But until then, I am content. I chose to be content. I will wait.